Love Without Feedback !!!!

This week I looked like very happy, but actually inside my heart I felt so sad. Once again I been rejected by Suyee. Last 2 weeks, I told her to think about it and let me know the answer by Christmas. She let me know the answer 1 week earlier before Christmas. She said she don't have any answer for me and not ready for it. This is the second time I got rejected by her. When I knew the anwer, my heart just like a glasses drop on the floor and broke it many pieces. I kept on acted like nothing happen because I don't want to showed to everyone that I'm sad. On the next day, I had to went back to college for class. In the KTM, my mind suddenly recalled back all the sweet memories between me and her. I think back the time we went out together before semester break. At that moment, my heart like crying out. Why all this sweet memories happened so shortly just like meteor rain? Then I also asked the Lord why she not belong to me? Am I too greedy. I just wished to get her only. This already enough to shake up my life. Now, I only can see her pretty face from far away. This only because she smile to other people and from now I think she not gonna smile with me already. I already got so many days don't have talk to her. The last day she stand near to me is to give me a Christmas present. Although, I know the present is not meaningful to her but I seems a lot for me. "I want to thanks her and no matter what is it in the present I will love it and take good care of it". I still hope to have a chance to get her love again. I really really love her.